Lovely sunflower,
I pondered one alternative and then the next. Nothing felt right. Nothing felt good. No option I could come up with was the perfect decision I was searching for.
Have you ever felt that way?
No matter how much information you gather, no matter how closely you listen to your intuition or to others, there’s rarely a perfect outcome. And even if there was, we’d never know it ahead of time.
Finding the perfect person doesn’t guarantee the perfect relationship.
Landing the perfect job doesn’t mean you won’t struggle with it.
Buying the perfect house doesn’t ensure you’ll build a life you love.
And as this oracle card reminded me so clearly: the blind spot. Sometimes, I become so absorbed in my dilemmas that I don’t even notice the bigger issue staring at me. That bigger dilemma is this:
Can I learn to trust myself?
The truth is, we don’t only chase perfection because we’re afraid of making the wrong choice. We’re scared of how we’ll feel about ourselves if we get it “wrong.” We’re afraid of confronting that inner voice, the bully, that whispers: “You should have known better.”
It’s the part of us that doubts we’ll be able to figure things out. That questions our ability to move through life, as we're meant to, with stumbles, lessons, and growth along the way.
So there I was, looking at my blind spot, realizing it’s no longer a blind spot, because I finally see it. What fascinates me most is how, every time I draw a card, I receive what I need to hear. Not necessarily what I’m asking for and certainly not always what I want to hear. There’s something deeper at work, and I’ll always be in awe of it.
Since drawing that card, something shifted. I’m done searching, not because I found the perfect answer, but because I’ve decided to trust. To take a leap of faith. I’m fully aware of this blind spot now, and I know my next step is to trust the process and see what unfolds.
Not because everything will fall perfectly into place, but because it’s okay to take missteps. It’s okay to figure things out as I go. It’s all part of the journey. No matter how difficult or scary it may feel, that’s the only way to stop walking in circles.
The universe has a way of showing us that the problem we’re trying to solve… may not be the problem at all. When we obsess over finding the “perfect” solution, we can end up spinning in place, without even realizing it. But maybe the real message, the real “blind spot,” is this:
We learn by doing.
And sometimes, we won’t know what we needed to know until we’ve already taken the step.
And that’s okay.
That’s what life is for.
To learn.
